Now to be fair, she wasn't expecting me cheap headphones for another hour, and I suppose we all feel a **t vulnerable after a shower with just a towel on. Even so, the look of alarm that went across her beats by dre headphones face took me aback. I have to explain this a **t. Of course, I was expecting her to be a little surprised. But the thing was, after she'd taken it cheap beats by dre in and seen it was me, there was a clear second, maybe more, when she went on looking at me if not with fear, then with a real wariness. It beats by dre headphones was like she'd been waiting and waiting for me to do something to her, and she thought the time had now come. The look was gone the next instant and we monster beats just carried on as usual, but that incident gave us both a jolt. It made me realise Ruth didn't trust me, and for all I know, maybe she herself hadn't beats by dre headphones fully realised it until that moment. In any case, after that day, the atmosphere got even worse. 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I'd first beats by dre headphones heard about it from a couple of my donors up in North Wales. Then a few days later, Ruth too started telling me about it. I was just relieved we'd cheap beats by dre found something to talk about, and encouraged her to go on. "This boy on the next floor," she said. "His carer's actually been to see it. He says it's not far cheap beats by dre from the road, so anyone can get to it without much bother. This boat, it's just sitting there, stranded in the marshes." "How did it get there?" I asked. "How do I cheap beats by dre know? Maybe they wanted to dump it, whoever owned it. Or maybe sometime, when everything was flooded, it just drifted in and got itself beached. Who knows? It's supposed to cheap beats by dre be this old fishing boat. With a little ca**n for a couple of fishermen to squeeze into when it's stormy." The next few times I came to see her, she always beats by dre headphones managed to bring up the boat again. Then one afternoon, when she began telling me how one of the other donors at the centre had been taken by her carer monster beats to see it, I said to her: "Look, it's not particularly near, you know. It would take an hour, maybe an hour and a half to drive." "I wasn't suggesting anything. beats by dre headphones I know you've got other donors to worry about." "But you'd like to see it. You'd like to see this boat, wouldn't you, Ruth?" "I suppose so. I suppose I would. You cheap beats by dre spend day after day in this place. Yeah, it'd be good to see something like that." "And do you suppose"--I said this gently, without a hint of sarcasm--"if we're driving all cheap beats by dre that way, we should think about calling in on Tommy? Seeing his centre's just down the road from where this boat's meant to be?" Ruth's face didn't show anything at first. monster beats "I suppose we could think about it," she said. Then she laughed and added: "Honest, Kathy, that wasn't the only reason I've been going on about the boat. I do cheap beats by dre want to see it, for its own sake. All this time in and out of hospital. Then cooped up here. Things like that matter more than they once did. But cheap beats by dre all right, I did know. I knew Tommy was at the Kingsfield centre." "Are you sure you want to see him?" "Yes," she said, no hesitation, looking straight at me. "Yes, I cheap headphones do." Then she said quietly: "I haven't seen that boy for a long time. Not since the Cottages." Then, at last, we talked about Tommy. We didn't go into things in dr dre headphone a **g way and I didn't learn much I didn't know already. But I think we both felt better we'd finally brought him up. Ruth told me how, by the dr dre headphone time she left the Cottages the autumn after me, she and Tommy had more or less drifted apart. 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